Thursday, July 14, 2011

you wanted me to blog about the 7 deadly sins... and i kinda figure you guys should know them and what they mean so in i am saying the sin, today's modern "synonym" and then applying it to my life

Pride: "ego-tripping" : i do attract attention to things that i do and accomplishments i have at times. i show pride when i do something really good that people may not even recognize. so many people focus on the negative that sometimes it feels necessary to show the positive. i don't really think it's necessary to show yourself off and your abilities, but sometimes it happens. although, i do hate bragging. i don't want to get a big head

Avarice: "greed" or "materialism" : it is like when you eat the last chocolate chip cookie. you really should offer it to someone else, but you eat it anyways. or when you buy and buy and buy just because you can. i do this with shoes. when you think about it, i don't really need 15 pairs of shoes that all look kinda the same when there are people who have never worn shoes in their lives, but you buy the shoes anyways. its just wanting and desiring, you can't get enough. it's stuff like "oh my god, i HAVE to have those shoes" or "I NEED THAT CAR!" you don't really, you just desperately want that. i am definitely guilty of this at times. 

Envy: "entitlement" : jealousy. simply. you want what someone else has. you hate them for what they have. for their clothes. their car. their house. their family. their lifestyle. their boyfriend. their happiness. doesn't matter. you feel like you should have what they have and that they don't deserve it. it is a silent hatred that turns you into a big green monster. i do this sometimes. you hate someone because they never have any problems, they are always so happy and alive. but really they might have a lot going on with them. when you are envious you don't really think of anything past the image of what you want but don't have. you always have to have something more.

Wrath: "abuse" or "anger" : i take my anger out on the ones i am closest to quite honestly, i know they will always be there for me no matter what and they won't walk away and i can be abusive towards them, not physically but emotionally. when you are angry you know what hurts other people. i get angry and say shit i know i shouldn't say and i can be vicious. everyone has their days when  the fangs come out. 

Lust: "lack of self control" or "desire" : i desire a lot of things. lust doesn't have to be just about sex, it can be lusting for happiness if you wanted it to be. i think everyone has their uncontrollable desires. you know you shouldn't want it or do it, but you do it anyways. enough said on this one.

Gluttony: "addiction" : you can be addicted to everything from nail polish to alcohol. some addictions are better than others. i am addicted to starbucks and nailpolish and shoes and cuddling all day and ice cream and driving with the top down. im also addicted to things that are not so good for you. but that is an every day struggle with yourself. it takes effort and commitment to stay away from that.

Sloth: "whining" : i whine way more than i should. i complain about how its too hot. too cold. things move too fast and too slow. people hurt me. people are too clingy. it's too early. it's too late. im hungry. i am way too full. i really should stop whining and just smile.

i wish you would love me for all of my imperfections too. i am sick of trying to portray this unreal, idealistic version of myself. it's too hard. it's not real. i want you to see the real me for a change instead of this projection of a perfect girl. im not plastic. im not moldable. i am who i am and i really wish you would accept that.

guys really need to start respecting girls. they should not cheat. they should not lie. they should not use us as late night booty calls. they should not make us that "when you are bored" person. they should be with one girl, only one girl, and be faithful to her. love her. call he beautiful, don't say that she's hot. Open the door for her, don't make her follow you like a dog. Kiss her forehead, don't pressure her into having sex with you. She is not there to take her clothes off. She is not your play toy. Just because she is something shiny and new doesn't mean you get to abuse that. If you got her, you should keep her happy. Keep her safe. Baby her. Listen to her. But do not take advantage of her. That makes me sick.

i love when music explains everything you are thinking. you can listen to it over and over and it is numbing. it feels so good to just have something explain how you feel when there are no words to put to the feeling.

things that come to mind : because i can:

gray hound buses. Marlboro cigarettes. miss dior cherie. black coffee. vinyl records. honey suckle. Italiano. amethyst. apples. lilac. linen sheets. acoustic guitars. one night motels. open mic nights. snaps. rope swings. caked mud. christmas trees. honey. rosaries. lizards. ticket booths. parted lips. chains and cross necklaces. parking tickets. rosin. charcoal gray tee shirts. lipstick. gerber daisies. grits and pancakes for breakfast. chicken coops. butterflies. curly hair. blush colored night gowns. feathers. tangerines. arizona iced tea. earrings. baby feet. heart shaped glasses. topaz. thai. dinosaur toys. french. floppy hats. freckles. broken glass. black lace. the word rouge. salted caramel. grunge. birthmarks. fields of wild flowers. fireflies. soft serve ice cream. strawberries and cream. sidewalks. dandelions. baseball hats. sprinklers. chlorine kisses. fourth of july. chevy. freshly mowed grass. cilantro. mailmen. kaleidoscope. pyramid. herbs. infant. india. ardent. lemonade. brooks. kinky hair. hypnotism. coral. veiled. mythology. lemon. cicadas. sapphire. archery. sequoias. coyotes. orchid. concord grapes. pine tree air fresheners. sentiment.cauliflower. salmon. gasoline. overalls. boxers. mediterranean. countryside. sparkles. convertibles. warm baths. rose petals. hot tea. peacock fish. cobweb. oatmeal. quicksand. binoculars. ice caps. beda fights. cabbage. half smiles. driving too fast. the last slice of pizza. coil. chicken. dream catchers. haystacks. cinnamon. henna tattoos. Kurt Cobain. rearview mirrors. fables. broken glass. sepia toned pictures. fire. wavy hair from salt water. lightbulbs. gold fish. suitcases. heads or tails. runny mascara. intertwined fingers. how your heart beats faster when you see a long lost friend. ticklish. antiques. safety pins. lollipops. rings. coin jars. painted toes. putting songs on repeat. crystalline. coffee. burning paper. crying out of happiness.envy. red wine. raspy voices. when someone leaves you speechless.

i am not your baby.

marisol: funny how we think that we can control our boyfriends & girlfriends. no person can control another no matter how hard you try, well unless you use magic.. but i'm pretty sure none of us go to Hogwarts so SHOOT. I guess we have to do it the old fashioned way & learn the meaning of free will

fuck fake girls. they are a waste of time.who wants to be friends with a backstabbing, lying, materialistic bitch anyways!! i mean seriously. it is a complete waste of energy invested in a fake friendship that will go nowhere and lead to only pain. they want to see you suffer they want to see you cry they want to make you miserable. they will spread rumors and act like nothing happened. girls like that can go to hell. they are a waste of space on this planet. 

laugh at yourself a little. it makes things so much better when you can make fun of your own mistakes. so what for image. who needs it. you've got your happiness and thats what counts! 

funky new things to do to my nails:

scrabble board
polka dots all over
splatter paint
zig zags
peacock print
random lines
colored squares

let me be your ringmaster. let me seduce. let me enchant. let me tempt and tease and please. let me entertain. let me persuade. it's my passion. it's my talent.

i love awkward couples that look like they would never be together. i think it's kinda funny to see where people find love. you see who is shallow and who likes the person for who they are... or they are just desperate. but i think it is really interesting seeing couples that look like they would never be together and try and figure out how they got together and what they see in each other

let's walk down the beach all alone and find ourselves in the setting sun. just to get away for a little while.

who needs television when you have so much drama on facebook

December 2, 1996
Green Day
P.O. Box 710
Berkeley, Ca 94701-0710
Re: Insomniac
To whom it may concern:
I am a parent, and I am very disturbed by the cassette tape my 8 year old son was listening to. His 60 year old grandmother bought it for him as a birthday present and was totally unaware of its explicit content. The store in which she bought it did not have any ticket or color on it to warn parents of the content within. A issue I plan to pursue with the right people.
Isn't it possible to make music anymore? That tape is not something any singer/songwriter should take any pride in at all. It is horrifying and has got to be one of the worst interpretations of an 'artform' that I have ever had the misfortune to hear. I know it is possible for the group to make 'good music' because I have heard them sing before. For example, the song entitled "When I Come Around" is one of my son's favorites. It's a song that he and his Dad sang together whenever it was on MTV or they were driving in the car together.
Unfortunately, one doesn't have to sing trash to have a following. And if that creates such a following one would do well to wonder exactly what type of people he wants following him! This may do nothing to change the type of music performed or change your views on the art of making music but it helps me to know that there is one less family who will be buying such rubbish and I have a big mouth so I'll make everyone I know aware. That tape is trash, as you can plainly see, and you'll find it enclosed.
Why don't you do something positive and clean up your act!!!! Isn't there enough garbage in the world? All the thoughts you are helping to put in the minds of our youth is scary. You have so much influence why not use it for something GOOD?

I just received your letter and this is my response. 
I don't write music for parents, grandparents, or eight year olds. I write for myself and I'll say anything I damn well please. That's the difference between you and me. I do what I want.... You do what you're told. 
Obviously, we're not on the same planet, let alone the same ball park. I find people like you offensive and it "helps me" to know you wont be buying anymore of our records. Next time, I suggest you do a little research before you purchase such "rubbish" for your little boy. It might save you a few extra bucks. 
Billie Joe and the rest of Green Day 
P.S. You're right about one thing... You do have a big mouth.

your imperfections make you so much more perfect to me. i don't care that your hair is messy and that your smile isn't perfectly straight. i like your laugh. i like that you've been through a lot and that you are silly. your quirkiness is what makes you, well, you. and i wouldn't have it any other way

i'm learning how to trust
i'm learning how to love
i'm learning how to let go
i'm learning how to forgive
it's all about baby steps

i get to go to hawaii for 10 days. i am stoked.

things i love about summer:

ice cream
late nights
stays light darker
laying around in bikinis
tan boys
it's warm at night
lounging by the pool
iced tea and lemonade
meeting new people
tank tops
going out to lunch whenever
chlorine and bleached hair
ipods on blast
staying up late and waking up in the middle of the day
the sunshine
sneaking into pools
driving with the top down
messy buns
summer love
flowers in your hair

i'm enjoying the fact that i can do what i want and i dont worry about other people at all. confidence is the sexiest thing a girl can have. a smile, an attitude, a little glint in your eye. that can make a big difference. hold your shoulders high and show em what you've got. intimidation is a good thing. it makes you hot and unattainable hahaa

i dont hate you
i just hope your next period happen in a shark tank 

if breakups didn't exist the music industry would seriously be bankrupt. every single song is about new love of breaking up. thinking that they could never do a wrong. that what goes around comes around. that they are not giving any other chances. that they are so through. missing them.

i hate messy rooms. it's easier to just rearrange it than clean it up..... i  throw stuff everywhere. there are papers and clothes everywhere all over the floor and my bookcase and my desk. it is just a pain in the ass to pick up

one day you won't wake up, yesterday was the last day you ever lived. you never know when or where this day will be. turn off your TV. Smash your cell phone. Tell someone you love them every damn day

let me be the one you call if you jump, i will break your fall, lift you up and fly away with you into the night if you need to fall apart, i can mend a broken heart, if you need to crash, then burn, you're not alone

porn really fucked up guy's view on girls. 

see you and me have a better time than most can dream of, better than the best, so we can pull on through, whatever tears at us, whatever holds us down, and if nothing can be done, we'll make the best of what's around

we ascribe beauty to that which is simple; which has no superfluous parts; which exactly answers its end; which stands related to all things; which is the mean of many extremes

my reasons aren't reasons they're excuses to hide the truth. and the truth is, i'm scared. i'm scared that if i let myself be happy for one moment my world will come crashing down.

i am in love with they way you make me smile. it doesn't matter what we are talking about. i just smile. you just sit there and listen to me talk and tell my story and you keep looking at me and looking at me and i laugh and say "what?!" and you respond with some adorable like "nothing.. just you." or you say "you're beautiful" or something like that. you make me giggle. you tickle me. you kiss my forehead and my cheeks. i say that there are no stars and you say sure there are. you call me beautiful in sweat pants. when i have no makeup on. my hair is in a sloppy bun. you still call me beautiful. you tell me that you are in love with my eyes and my smile and the sound of my voice. you hold my hand and you don't let go. you always want to see me, no matter what. day or night, you always take advantage of an opportunity to see me. you text me in the morning. you text me goodnight. you listen when i have a problem. you read. you know what it feels like to hurt. you have seen a lot in your life. you still always smile. you are optimistic. you are strong. i can joke with you. i call you just to say hi. i never do that. i let you see me at my worst. you definitely deserve me at my best. you make me blush. i never blush. you make me wanna dance in the middle of the street with no music playing. i fall asleep thinking about how happy i was. i haven't been this happy in a while. you take my head to a whole new place. it's refreshing. you are perfect because of all your imperfections. your quirkiness is what i love. your passion for life is what drives me crazy. the look in your eyes like you are a little kid, seeing things for the first time, that wide eyed wonder makes me grin. its unbelievable. its unexplainable. its happy. im happy. 

when a guy cries in front of a girl- it means a few things. it could mean that he is angry, hurt. it could mean he is upset. it could mean that he doesn't understand why something happened. it could mean he is so incredibly happy. but what it will always mean is that he loves her. 

pleasing everybody is never a responsibility. if they like you for who you are, good. if not, it's their problem not yours

i think this says something about how image has changed. the "barbie doll figure used to look like a normal person. now it looks like a doll that went through plastic surgery. the view of the way girls should look keeps getting worse and worse, more unrealistic every year.

F L I R T : Fuck Love I'd Rather Tease

the tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon but that we wait so long to begin it

i got my fashion show dress for november! 
and i must say, it is very chanel ;)

please do not shove your Christianity in my face. it isn't going to make me fall in love with your faith, it is going to disgust me by the fact that you tell people who don't believe what you do bad people. i went to Christian club once.. and they said that not reading and praying every day is like Anorexia. I have never heard that not reading the bible is like having something wrong with your mind where you can't stop starving yourself. they also said that people who do not read and pray every day are going to hell. It is shit like that that makes me hate religion.

being hurt is something you can't stop from happening, but being miserable is always your choice

i want a mermaid ring! i think it is so cute. you always have a piece of the sea with you that way :)

someone please bring me chipotle. i am starving

leave me alone. i don't know what i did to deserve you ruining every bit of happiness in my life.

some people never find the right kind of love, you know the kind that steals your breath away. the kind that jolts your heart, sets its beating apace. the kind that makes every terrible minute apart feel like hours. lucky me, i've found the right kind of love.. with the wrong person

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