Friday, December 17, 2010


Sometimes i wonder why i didn't walk away and why i stood there and took it. Sometimes i just want to feel pain to know that i am real. to know that i am still here. because no matter what i do everything seems to go wrong- its like a bad dream that everything is falling to pieces and you keep waiting to wake up waiting to wake up... but you never do. And i'm falling and i'm wondering why i let this go on for so long. And how i got so lost somewhere along the way. Sometimes i wonder why the fuck i let you lie to me the way you did- just stand there and tell me what i want to hear when none of it is true. You don't love me... you say i'm unloveable... You tell me that you will be there for me no matter what.. well where were you to hold my hand and tell me if would be okay... that everything would work out fine. Right now i just need a hug and that numb feeling that has slowly began to fade.

Fuck you

I love when this statement proves its self true, "ALL GUYS ARE ASSHOLES"
All of a sudden their lies become their truths and their love just disappears. Can some one please tell me where it goes cause that would be great, thanks. And i love when its clearly the guys fault and he even admits it but in the end your the one getting yelled at, please tell me how that makes any scene at all. Are we supposed to just fix every problem in the world while you lazy boys sit on your ass and watch t.v. and tell us were not doing it right. I love this world we live in. We only get flowers when the boy cheats. We only get presents if he wants to keep us around for sex. I just don't understand why everything is the way it is.

xoxo raquel alise
900 views :) thanks for reading you guys

Kissing in the rain

Kissing in the rain is amazing. I don't know what it is about it. There is just something about your body against theirs and having rain pour down and kissing that makes it so amazing. It just feels perfect like just for  a minute its just you two and everything is okay and you care about each other. I love that feeling. Its just.. perfect. It gives me chills. Thats never a bad thing. You see it in movies and stuff but actually doing it is just.... AHHHHHH i dont even know. I love it :)


I am obsessed. I wear boots every single day now. Boots and a hoodie and skinny jeans. Or a cute shirt. They are just so warm and cozy its hard to resist

Hey slut, has your right leg met your left leg yet?

Take it off

This Lyrics

Got a baby girl sleepin’ in my bedroom
And her momma laughing in my arms
There’s the sound of rain on the rooftop
And the game’s about to start
I don’t really know how I got here
But I’m so glad that I did
And it’s crazy to think that one little thing
Could have changed all of this
Maybe it didn’t turn out like I planned
Maybe that’s why I’m such, such a lucky man

Every stoplight I didn’t make
Every chance I did or I didn’t take
All the nights I went too far
All the girls that broke my heart
All the doors that I had to close
All the things I knew but I didn’t know
Thank God for all I missed
Cause it led me here to this

Like the girl that I loved in high school
Who said she could do better
Or the college I wanted to go to
Till I got that letter
All the fights and the tears and the heartache
I thought I’d never get through
And the moment I almost gave up
All led me here to you
I didn’t understand it way back when
But sittin’ here right now
It all makes perfect sense

Every stoplight I didn’t make
Every chance I did or I didn’t take
All the nights I went too far
All the girls that broke my heart
All the doors that I had to close
All the things I knew but I didn’t know
Thank god for all I missed
Cause it led me here to this

Oh I cried when my momma passed away
And now I got an angel
Looking out for me today
So nothing’s a mistake

Every stoplight I didn’t make
Every chance I did or I didn’t take
All the nights I went too far
All the girls that broke my heart
All the doors that I had to close
Everything I knew but I didn’t know
Thank God for all I missed
Cause it led me here to this

Led me here to this

all i want for christmas is you ♥

Bored so i guess i will answer these...

The bold ones are the ones that apply to me ahahha

There’s something else you should be doing at the moment.
You ate chicken today.    
You are lactose intolerant. 
You have a boy or girl in your life right now
You have seen a movie in the last week
Your eyes are Gray
Your eyes are green
Your eyes are brown
You like cooking
There’s a nearby TV on. 
You get along with your neighbours. 
Twilight is a horrible series. 
You’re hungry right now. 
You have worked out today.    
Running a mile sounds awful. 
You have a job. 
You love to bake Christmas cookies.    
Your parents are still together. 
You woke up before 8 this morning. 
Baths are better than showers. 
You are 5’5” or shorter.
You hate British accents.  
Victoria’s Secret is a good store. 
Cats are better than dogs. 
The 90’s sucked.    
Your cell phone is right next to you. 
Your favorite color is either blue or purple.
Your hair is short. 
You are by yourself right now.
The last thing you drank was water. 
You’re in your PJ’s right now.

Your hair colour is natural. 
Fred from Youtube is annoying.
You don’t drink soda.
You are at least 130 lbs.
There’s at least 20$ in your wallet. 
It’s cold out.
Orange juice is better than apple juice.
You love someone right now. 
Video games are awesome. 
Your sheets are white. 
You have read works by Shakespeare before.
You’re fat. 
You’ve been professionally diagnosed with a psychological disorder.    
You know someone in the hospital right now. 
You’ve showered today.    
You know someone who has beaten cancer. 
Sneakers are your favorite shoes to wear. 
Chocolate is better than vanilla.
You’re allergic to peanuts.  
You’ve never been to New York. 
You’ve never been on a varsity sports team. 
You want to go to Europe. 
You’re using a laptop right now. 
Plastic surgery is a good idea. 
Vanilla is the best scent a girl can wear. 
You’ve cheated on someone before. 
You have a broken heart at the moment.    
One of your friends has tried drugs.
School is too early.  
Your nails have nail polish on them right now. (ACRYLICS)

You’re Italian.    
You have a tan right now. 
You’ve been on a diet before. 
You shop in plus sized clothing stores.    
Hot Topic is scary. 
There are socks on your feet right now. 
You’ve used a hair straightener. 
Shopping online is easier than shopping in an actual store.
You’re in Verizon’s network. 
Cheesecake is delicious. 
Your BMI falls into the overweight category. 
You have gotten your hair cut in the past month. 
Your birthday is within the next 2 months. 
You’ve been rejected.    
Comedies are better than action films.
Math is the best subject.    
You are fluent in more than one language. 
You love Greek food. 
You consider yourself a picky eater. 
You have more than 3 pillows on your bed. 
You live with your parents. 
You’re happy right now. 
You are a high school graduate.
You have a pet cat. 
You were born before April 5th, 1991. 
You have brown hair. 
You have blue-ish eyes.
You last name is longer than 5 letters long.
You are in a relationship. (Uhmmm....)
You are can count to 20 in another language.

You have studied a foreign language.
You voted in the 2008 presidential election.
You own a vehicle that is older than a 2004.
You have worked 3rd shift.
You have worked in a fast food restaurant.
You drove somewhere that was further than a half hour away today.
You live in New Jersey.
You live in Montana.
You live in Pennsylvania.
Your last name begins with an ‘M’.
Your middle name begins with a ‘C’.
Your first name begins with an ‘S’.
You are older than 19.
You are younger than 16. 
You are an only child.
Your parents are  divorced.
You have more than one sibling.
You are an Aquarius.
You are a vegetarian.
You have a gym membership.
You are in the military.
You have a relative in the military.
You have been to Canada.
You have been to Mexico. 
You have been to Europe.
You are currently enrolled in college/university.
You have done something you told yourself you wouldn’t.
You have braces.  
You wear contact lenses.
You have a tattoo on your ankle.
You have a tattoo on your wrist.
You have a tattoo on your lower back. 
You have a tattoo on your upper arm.    
You have a lip piercing
You have a tongue piercing.
You have your nipples pierced.
You have your cartilage pierced. 
You have curly hair. (curly ish hahaha its more like beach sex hair)
You have received flowers from someone in the last 2 months.    

You are engaged.    
Your relationship is complicated
You are married.  
You have children.   
You want children
You are an aunt or uncle.
Your bedroom walls are blue.
Your bedspread is red.
Your bedroom carpet is beige.
You have been out to eat at a sit-down restaurant in the last week.
You have been drunk in the past 24 hours.   
You have lost your virginity before you turned 15.
You are bisexual.    
You have kissed someone that is the same sex as you
You watch Scrubs.
You watch Jon & Kate Plus 8.
You watch American Idol.
You have been to the movies within the last month.
You have cursed in front of your grandparents.
You had a lunch box with a cartoon character on it when you were little.
You actually pay attention to politics.
You are still waiting for your first kiss.   
You have kissed someone within the last week.
You have kissed three or more people this year.  
You would kiss the last person you kissed again.

You were told you looked cute today. 
You were hugged today.
Your best friend is the opposite sex.
You have paid more than $100 on one item of clothing.
You had a date to prom... too young to go
You are a good speller.
You are always on time. 
You believe in karma.
You have a dog
You have done something illegal within the last 24 hours.
You have thrown up within the last 6 months.
You have ridden an elevator within the last 3 days. 
You have spent the night at someone else’s house within the last 2 weeks.
You have been out of the country within the last year.    
You love Chinese food.
You love Italian food.  
You love Mexican food.
You love country music. 
You love rap.
You love hip hop. 
You love punk rock.
You love hard rock. 
You love metal. 
You love classic rock.
You love bluegrass.   

You love oldies. (the doors are amazing)
You love techno.
You love instrumental music.
You have taken pictures of yourself just because you were bored.
You know someone younger than 10 who passed away.
You have been in a car wreck. not a bad one.   
You have had stitches.
You are reading a book right now
You have been skinny dipping
You have a parent who is a teacher.   
You have a checking account. 
You have a debit card.
You have a currently have a $2 bill in your possession. 
You have dated someone who was 2 years younger than you.
You have dated someone who was 2 years older than you.
You have broken up with someone for someone else. 
You have cheated on someone.
You have been cheated on.
You are Catholic.
You are Mormon.
You are Buddhist.  
You are Agnostic. 
You wish at 11:11.
You have had your current job for more than 3 months. 
You have had your heart broken.
You broke someone else’s heart. 
You felt bad about it. 
You have an Aunt Karen.    
You have an Uncle Bill. 
You have a cousin Sarah. 
You have a cousin Adam.    
You have worked with a Danielle.  
You have ridden in a car with a Stephen.
You have hugged a Tiffany.  
You have kissed a Blake.
You have had class with a David.
You have had a crush on an Emily.
You have dated a Derek.   
You have been neighbors with a Hannah. 
You have done something just for the fact that you were old enough to.
You have been to a cemetary at midnight.   
You have been a pumpkin for Halloween. 
You have stayed up for 48 hours straight .
You have been to Walmart within the last 3 days.
You own a pair of scrubs.    
You own a cowboy hat.   
You own a leather coat. 
You are missing someone right now.
You have been let down recently.
You have had someone you thought you could trust betray you.
You would rather have a one-night stand than a relationship.
You would rather win $500 from the lottery, than guest on a game show.
You have met someone famous.
You have more than one thing pierced
You want tattoos 
You are tired
You got less than 5 hours of sleep
You like marzipan
You just bought new shoes
You are over 20

Hello Winter

Winter has came knocking. The crisp cold air, the clouded sky, what a perfect day! Lets grab our coats and put our gloves on because the snow is falling. Today is the perfect day to cuddle up and drink a nice cup of hot tea. I couldn't ask for a more perfect day to watch snowflakes. Oh wait... we live in California.

xoxo raquel alise

And Love...

What's your love worth if you can't share it? Give your love away because you'll always get some in return. We cry over love, we fight over love, let's just be happy that we have it.

xoxo raquel alise