Monday, April 25, 2011

you know that if you love 
me i'll break you.

be confident and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. if that makes me a bitch, then at least i know that i am speaking my mind. don't let people push you around because that is when you conform to what society wants you to be.. you lose all individuality  

i mean it when i say that i fucking hate you.

don't you wish that you could wear whatever you want and have no one look at you like you are completely crazy?  i think that would be a wonderful thing.

drama lies and tears, cheers to teenage years.

i wonder if i ever cross your mind, for me it happens all the time.

"i love when you finally find someone who makes you so happy that it drives you crazy. it's probably one of the best feelings in the world when you actually care about someone and they care back. for once everything seems to go your way instead of wrong. and it's kinda nice when other people are jealous because the person you are with is absolutely gorgeous ;) "

these are the ways when we laugh until we cry, when we drive and never look back, when the music is loud and all you can do is smile because you know that it doesn't matter where you are going, because it will all be okay. nights are long, days are warm, smiles are often. where silly pictures are the ones you will cherish forever and you are young and free. spend more time laughing and less time whining. it is so much better when you see how wonderful these years are.

.....i need to scrapbook.....

you know when you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams

people who expect nothing will never be disappointed.

this is possibly one of the most adorable things i have ever seen. i mean honestly, if  a guy took me to a field of wild flowers and just laid there with me i think i would marry him right then and there

don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you.

if my heart was a house
 you would be home. 

awww how sweet, 
you apologized. 
save it for a girl 
who will actually believe 
your bullshit.

sounds amazing right!!! yum. 
i am really looking forward to all of that chocolate.

lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off.

he is honestly a god. i am in love with him and the doors. the charchter for the book i am writing is a little like him. well a lot like him... if i could have dinner with one person that is dead it would be him.

when this life makes you mad enough to kill
when you want something bad enough to steal
when you feel like you have had it up to here
cause you mad enough to scream
but sad enough to tear
that's rock bottom

sometimes we fail, 
it just means god is saying 
he has something better planned for us.

if i die young, bury me in satin,
lay me down on a bed of roses,
sink me in the river at dawn,
send me away with words of a love song

do what you want and fuck the rest

let's go shopping and drink coffee and travel the world and fall in love

and when you smile 
the whole world stops 
and stares for a while

i want to live in an old house and dress up like they did then and have tea parties and balls and wear big fake wigs and relive history

you drive me crazy, you have no idea what you do to me and i have no idea how you do it. i wish i knew so i wouldn't feel like this. i've been there through it all with you and seen you at your worst and best. to me you look the same. make and no makeup you look gorgeous. if only you knew

it's something unpredictable, 
but in the end it's right. 
i hope you had the time of your life.

where'd i want to be in 5 years? happy....

smiles are like band aids, they cover up the pain, but it still hurts

sometimes not being 
in control is the most 
beautiful thing in the world

yesterday was that you, looked just like you, strange things my imagination might do, to breathe reflect on what we've been through or am i just going crazy missing you

parents make rules to establish authority, but kids are meant to break the rules and establish independence 

i may be bad but i'm perfectly good at it.

..blow kisses not boys..

god, give me patience, 
cause if you give me strength, 
someone is going to get hit

ignorance is bliss

drink up baby, look at the stars, 
i'll kiss you again, between the bars

"sex is nature, i go along with nature"
marilyn monroe

blackbird singing in the dead of night
take these broken wings and learn to fly

once a diva, always a diva

at least he's honest!

you know who i trust? no one
you know who i love? no one

you know when you first meet someone, you never think they are going to hurt you. they smile, they talk, you watch their eyes. the way they grin spreads across their face, the way they brush their hair back or put their hands in their pockets. you think they're nice. unless it's a crazy homeless guy or some pedophile, but you get to know them. you talk to them. learn about them. and then they let you down. and then you tell them not to. they do it again. you tell them not to blow this. you tell them that you really like them and not to mess this up. the next time you start to get a little annoyed. you are hooked on them by now. why do they keep doing this? making these little mistakes? a little time goes by- one more fight. you tell them you don't want to give up on them. they promise they won't. they do. again. why are you still giving them a shot? MY GOD WOMAN! kick him to the curb already. he let's you down again. he hurts you. now your voice is nothing but a whisper. you expect him to let you down but pray he won't. he always does. you whisper as you tell him to get his things and go. he let you down.

you're too fine to be laying down in bed alone. but you will never let anyone in. you have a wall too big. you have been hurt too many times. your self-esteem is shot and you are broken. you will never see how beautiful you are will you.


have you ever wondered 
if your dollar bill 
was once in a 
stripper's underwear?

everything i'm not, made me everything i am.

i've got an angel
 she doesn't wear any wings
she wears a heart that can melt my own
she wears a smile that can make me wanna sing
she gives me presents
with her presence alone
she gives me everything i could wish for
she gives me kisses on the lips just for coming home
she could make angels 
i've seen it with my own eyes
you gotta be careful when you've got good love
cause the angels will just keep on multiplying
but you're so busy changing the world
just one smile can change all of mine
we share the same soul
oh oh oh ohhhh
we share the same soul
ohh oh oh ohhh
we share the same soul

go insane- throw some glitter in the air- make it rain

12 pm and my dusty telephone rings. heavy head up from my pillow who could it be? i hope it's you

she never say never, she rather say whatever, i'd rather stay together and she rather chase the devil

people say i've changed so much. well here's the honest truth. i grew up. i stopped letting people push me around all the time. i learned that you can't always be happy. i accepted reality

okay i'm watching you baby, and thinking about all the things i can do baby on top of the world, when i'm on top of you baby, spend the night with me and get popular baby


having sex doesn't make you popular. and it doesn't put you on the world. stop spreading this bullshit to young naive girls. we don't need any more baby mamas who don't know what they are doing do we??

if the lies don't touch you the truth will. but if i can't love you who will? when your friends are jumping ship when your crown begins to slip, and loyalties not a virtue who are you gonna turn to? when you seem to have lost your grip and the road begins to rip. i help your hand is this the thanks i get? i took you in this is the thanks i get? half a chance the thanks i get. a twist of plans, this is the thanks i get.

look at the stars, look how they shine for you.

burning brighter 
than sunshine.

smile through the bullshit.

kinda sorta really gorgeous

secret no. 54- 
eye lash wishes 
always come true

nothing better than driving down PCH with the windows down and your raybans on listening to music with a friend in the sunshine with your hair blowing everywhere and laughing until your stomach hurts. those are the best days


"therefore i tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink or about your body, what you will wear. is not life more than food and the body more than the clothes? look at the birds in the air, they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly father feeds them. are you not much more valuable than they? can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? and why worry about clothes? see how the flowers of the field grow. they do not labor or spin. yet i tell you that not even solomon in all his splendor was dressed like on of these. if that is how god clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you- you of little faith? so do not worry, saying, what shall we war? or what shall we drink? or what shall we wear? for the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly father knows that you need them. but seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. each day has enough trouble of  it's own"

0kay- someone sent this to me- and i am not religious but i kind of like the message. don't worry about tomorrow because tomorrow will worry about itself. just live your life. i think that is a good thought. just sharing

this is your life, and it's ending one minute at a time, live it

my god, why are you so good to me after all the wrong i have done to you? are you unbreakable? do you not expect anything? i don't understand. i am lucky to have you in my life still but i expected you to leave sooner. but you are still here hanging on. broken, still bleeding. looks like i've got some mending to do.

music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, flows from heaven to the soul

welcome to the place that i call home.

non-knowledge guids me over and over again to the point where i am myself because i recognize the good as the true, and where it is entirely up to me to live in accordance with it.

the essential for a woman 
is to risk living as though 
she knew the good exists. 

being a teenager is vastly overrated. unless you're us, you wouldn't understand. when times get rough you'll find out who your real friends are. we all make mistakes, we are stubborn and we couldn't give two shits what our parents think, we hate school, we hate people, we hate everything at one moment  in time, we have freak attacks, we cause drama, we get caught in drama, we fight, we love, we cry, we give up on believing in a higher power. we're all fucked up and that's the truth, we all come from dysfunctional backgrounds, we say things we don't mean, we yell, we scream, we get broken hearts, we get drunk, we get high, we win, we lose, we wish for everything to get better but it never does. grades don't mean a thing any more, we live on quotes and music that describe our lives. we are tired of waking up each morning and having to go to school where we see the people we hate, we get tired of hoping and dreaming for things to get better, we get tired of waiting around for you, we get tired of faking all the time, we get tired of waiting for the text message that's not going to come and we get tired of pretending we're fine. lies, hurt, regret, sorrow, love, music, screaming, drinking, smoking, partying, lust, sin, heartbreak, backstabbing, finding out who you're supposed to be, fallouts, creating yourself, life on the high road, crushed friendships, sex and drugs, not knowing what hit you, not giving a care, self-esteem issues, self-less decisions, harm, death, late nights, no sleep, no fairy tale endings, and real life problems. these are the things we face everyday. you'd hate it too, trust us. so welcome to the life of  a teenager.

it's funny how the people you know 
become the people you knew
 fuck all of you.

if you don't stand for something, you'll fall for anything.

for every stoplight i didn't make
every chance i did or i didn't take
all the nights i went too far
all the girls that broke my heart
all the doors that i had to close
all the things i knew but i didn't know
thank god for all i missed
cause it led me here to this

i learned to live half alive

i want miso soup from ichibiri right now please 

sometimes you have to give up on people. everyone that is in your journey is meant to be in your journey, but not everyone is meant to stay there

forget all the reasons why it won't work 
and believe the one reason that it will.

i hate how easily i remember the things i want to forget

being yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.

studies show intelligent girls get more depressed because they know what the world is really like.

dear boy,

you know who you are. you have a smile that could extract a smile from any girl's heart. your eyes shine while you talk. you make me grin when i see you smile at me and my heart turns to mush. my stomach is full of butterflies and i blush when you tell me that i'm beautiful. you hold my hand and kiss my forehead and we do things most people wouldn't. you could sit on the phone with me for hours and just talk and i love that. you are strong, but you would never break me. you don't love often,  but you love me. you don't let many in, but you let me break down your walls and i am lucky to call myself your girl. you are amazing in every single way and i couldn't ask for a better guy- a better man- to take car of my heart and to love me like no other could. you are a keeper. thank you for making me smile- genuinely smile. it has been missed and you brought it back

love always,
a very appreciative girl

i'll sleep when i'm dead

wish it was that easy.

the past can hurt- you can either run from it or learn from it

it's not how good you are it's how good you want to be

my heart is broken into a million tiny pieces.

can't wait to get the fuck out of orange county.... but knowing me i will live here forever. it is all that i have ever known. it is all i will ever know

my attitude is based 
on how you treat me

when being a hipster has become mainsteam

so my mom said i can't sext you because it's inappropriate so i'll just send it to you in a school loop email ;)

on the mossy turf we'll dance till
our feet shatter, our toes will splinter

what a lovely shade of slut you're wearing today!

can you shut the fuck up? i'm pretty tired of your damn mouth.

even if i tried to put myself in that kid's shoes, i wouldn't fit, because my steps have too much pride to fit in his small feet

94% of teenagers drink alcohol and do drugs. 
reblog if you like chocolate

fuck everything
party and bullshit
stay positive... or try to
because life's a bitch
ima keep flirting

take a picture of this smile, because you won't be seeing it for a while

i kno a girl, she puts the color inside of my world
but she's  just like a maze
where all of the walls are continually changed
and i've done all i can
to stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
now i'm starting to see
maybe it's got nothing to do with me

fathers, be good to your daughters
daughters will love like you do
girls become mothers and turn into lover
so mothers, be good to your daughters too

oh, you see that skin?
it's the same she's been standing in
since the day she saw him walking away
now i'm left cleaning up the mess he made

so fathers, be good to your daughters
daughters will love like you do
girls become lovers who turn into mothers
so mothers, be good to your daughters too

boys, you can break
you'll find out how much they can take
boys will be strong and boys soldier on
but boys would be gone without the warmth from
a woman's good, good heart

on behalf of every man
looking out for every girl
you are the guide and the weight of her world

so fathers, be good to your daughters
daughters will love like you do
girls become lovers who turn into mothers
so mothers be good to your daughters too

i'm sorry i wasn't everything you ever wanted

i wonder if it's possible 
to have a love affair 
that lasts forever

i've got an angel on my shoulder, but a devil in my head

desire. lust. sin

there's platinum lightning
in the sky, look
i'm living like a queen

falling out of love is hard, falling for betrayal is worse. 
broken trust and broken hearts

i've never wanted my memories to be erased more than i do right now

thank you for being there for me when no one else was. i wonder if i'll miss you, california boy. when i'm running away into the setting sun smiling as i never turn back. you were my guiding star, you were the light at the end of the tunnel and the freckles reflected in my eyes. you were the summer love and the beginning of the end. you believed when no one else did and i can find no way to repay you. you helped me write this song,  so long ago in the black of night. i smiled and hugged you and said thank you i found my voice and you walked away. and now im waiting for the world to hear my song, so i can prove them all wrong.

an ounce of performance is worth pounds of promises

found peace and i'm  loving it

you are a cinema i could watch forever

love is a prison, you can't break free

ASU days of the week: 
messed up monday
tipsy tuesday
wasted wednesday
thirsty thursday
fucked up friday
shit faced saturday
shwasted sunday

the perfect boy doesn't drink, smoke, cheat, or exist ha ha ha

you could be the vodka to my chaser 

i think i am finally coming to terms with the fact that i am albino

i wanna run away with you and never look back

loving you is suicide

your heart is my piñata 

i can't  feel heart but not for it beating

last night i let the party get the best of me

if i could paint you a picture, i would turn black into white. 

wake up drunk, go to sleep fucked up, story of my life

apparently, 1 in 5 people in the world are chinese. and there are 5 people in my family, so it must be one of them. it's either my mom or dad. or my older step-sister jenna. or my younger sister ho-chan-chu. but i think it's jenna

if we never expect anything, 
we'll never be let down

i wish that i was as good at photography as this kid is at his age! 

i learned to live half alive

just pushed the restart button

single and ready to fucking mingle

food makes everything better sometimes. just the fact that it looks so good makes everything better. indulge a little in life. you can eat more than celery and still be beautiful- you will be happier too

and the birds in the sky direct us to the sea where we can float away on waves and never return to the land we once knew

cats are vicious. kittens are adorable.

welcome to this place that i call paradise.

every girl should have that one friend comfortable enough to tell her when it's time to shave her mustache

bitch, i'm fabulous

i love it when you make me smile without even trying

every girl's dream is to have a guy call her at 3 AM just to say "hey baby, i just wanted to tell you that i love you"

everyone seems normal until you get to know them

you started a war that you can't win

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