look outside

look outside and tell me what you see. do you see all the magic? the stars burning around you? do you see the ocean the waves the way the colors tangle together and melt until they turn the color of a raven's ebony wing as the sun sinks into the water's depths.  look at all the beauty around you.

don't "k" me you slut.

word of the day

krukolibidinous

act of staring at someone's crotch

hahahhahahaa

"He just got home drunk. He ate 5 snack cakes, said Little Debbie's his bitch, went upstairs and fell asleep."

Prep Tests...

so much for sleeping in this morning! i woke up at 7 to go to school. on a saturday. please tell me you see a problem with this. 7:45 sitting in a classroom taking a test until 12.  I showed up in sweats a huge black sweat shirt leaopard slipper boot things my hair up no makeup on and my glasses on. ew. thats cute.  what a waste of 4 or 5 hours of my life. 

Why My Sister Isn't A Whore.

Your Girlfriend. Rated E for Everybody.

grrrr

grrrrr fight me. i dare you.

Kitty kitty kitty

even though i hate cats i love jen's baby kitten that she has. it makes me feel better. its just cute. its like able to be carried in one of my hands and its adorable and its feisty and i love it. its me in kitty form. and i hate cats. so this is a BIG FREAKINNNN DEAL!!!!!

when you're sad...

when you're sad.... JUST WATCH GLEE!!!  its heavy content plus music and some high school drama but you will feel better after you watch it. trust me. it really does work miracles.  i know from experience hehe maybe its because i went to OCHSA and im used to it... but i actually like Glee. Hmmm... maybe because it shows struggles in high school and combines theatre. im used to that stuff now. god i miss it. but yes. WATCH GLEE hahaha

BITE ME.

i asked for one thing.

i asked for one thing. i asked for you not to lie to me. and you can't even do that.. i asked for you to be honest with me and how i wouldn't be mad at you. and you lied to me. you disrespected me. you hurt me. you are continually lying to me. and all i want to do is tell you that i am so upset with you and that i am so disappointed that you did this to me. what happened to us? what happened to me and you? what happened to everything that we stood for. you ruined me and you. you ruined me and you. you ruined the trust i had in you.

hehe

having sex with him is like teaching a 2 year old how to shoot a machine gun.

obsession for the past 2 days

obsession = doors <3 jim morrison. he is amazing. and i love him and i love the doors.  and how raw everything is and the fact that they were true rock and roll and all of that. it is so good and uncensored and untamed and free and it is magic!

 

THERES SOME ABSOLUTELY DISGUSTING PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD!

just jump with me baby

this made me laugh hahaha

"We did naked snow angels in 14 degree weather, you can't tell me you had more liquor at that party" 

I'm Like You

i have a heart. it hurts sometimes. it beats a little faster when i see that boy i like. it races while i run. i have a mind. it hurts sometimes. sometimes it gets all fuzzy. you can blame my heart. i think about things. a lot. i have eyes. i can see what is going on. i'm not blind you know. i have lips. to say things you wouldn't believe. to kiss with. to purse when i'm angry. i have hair. its always falling in my face it gets kinda annoying. maybe i should just shave my head. I am a girl. I am a person. Did you know that? you did... okay so why do you treat me the way you treat me? I'm not your dog I'm not a doormat. so don't make me one.

look up

hi, yes. i have boobs i know. you want to look up now? you know i have eyes right? there you go. good job. you looked up. and now you are looking down again. typical. and you say you aren't like everyone else. that is a lie. i know that you are still staring. i hope you know that people notice you are doing that. Because you look kinda stupid when you talk to me. you have goo goo eyes and you aren't looking at my face. how embarrassing. 

enough said.

if you don't want to see the worst in me

you've got two choices:

cover your eyes

both hands tight

or just leave

just a thought...

i want a relationship that's not all about sex. i just want to cuddle with you and be able to tell you how my day was. I want to be able to tell you how happy you make me. I want to hold you when you're upset and kiss your pain away. I just want you all to myself. I don't want this. This fake love that revolves around lust. Because it is breaking my heart and its tearing us apart. And i hate it. Because i miss the way we used to be. When you'd call me beautiful or stunning instead of sexy and hot. When you'd kiss me in the hallway instead of giving me the look you give me now. I feel like i am nothing. Like i am your booty call. One phone call away. And i can't be that girl... i don't want to be that girl.

Kurt Vonnegut Everyone

" all the time is all the time. it does not change. it does not lend itself to warnings or explanations. it simply is. take it moment by moment, and you will find that we are all, as i've said before, bugs in amber. Here we are, trapped, in the amber of the moment. There is no why." 

Cats.

 i have a hatred for cats. i really really do. i don't know why but there is something about them that i extremely dislike. i just want to throw them out the fricken window every time i see them

crazy week

this week has been insane. sorry if i've been bitching but really. not so much fun. i'm going to get right on the post requests ;) hope you are all having a wonderful week back at school!! i know i am. 5:30 AM every day. hell yes. 

I'M TO BLAME

I AM THE REASON FOR ALL OF THE PROBLEMS HERE... IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU. SORRY, I AM TO BLAME. I BROKE YOUR HEART, I KNOW. I MADE YOU CRY, I SAID ALL THOSE THINGS TO YOU WHILE YOU WERE SO BROKEN AND SO HURT. HOW STUPID AM I?? CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME HOW STUPID I AM?? I NEED TO HEAR IT. YELL IT. HELL. SCREAM IT. I KNOW THAT I MESSED UP. OH MYY... I AM CRAZY YOU KNOW. I CAN'T THINK. I DON'T THINK. IS IT BAD THAT I DON'T THINK? ALL I DO IS HURT YOU. I WAS SO GOOD AND THEN I HURT YOU.  BABY I KNOW I'M WRONG. I AM SO SORRY FOR ALL THAT I HAVE SAID TO YOU. I SINCERELY APOLOGIZE TO YOU AND I HOPE YOU FORGIVE ME BABY.. NOW I KNOW HOW IMPORTANT I AM TO YOU AND HOW I WOULD FEEL IF WE WERE SEPARATED FROM EACH OTHER. THE DAY THAT HAPPENS I AM GOING TO DIE. BECAUSE THAT MEANS EITHER YOU LEFT ME... OR I LEFT YOU. AND I DON'T KNOW HOW I DIDN'T SEE I MEANT SO MUCH, THAT I WAS SO IMPORTANT TO YOU AND TO SEE YOU REACT LIKE THAT. I REALLY CAN'T TAKE IT. I DIDN'T KNOW YOU WOULD CRY LIKE THAT. FROM NOW ON PROMISE ME THAT YOU WON'T LEAVE WHATEVER HAPPENS TO US. PROMISE ME. SWEAR TO GOD. THAT YOU WON'T LEAVE MY SIDE OR LET GO OF MY HAND. AND IF YOU LEAVE I WILL RUN INTO YOU ON MY OWN AGAIN. SO PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME. YOU HAVE NO REASON TO LEAVE ME. BESIDES THE FACT THAT I AM STUPID. I'M SORRY I'M SO SO SORRY YOU CAN BLAME ME ALL YOU WANT.

Some relationships are like Tom & Jerry. They tease each other, knock down each other, irritate each other, but can’t live without each other.

obsession for the past 2 days

derek garcia sent me this song. and i fell in love.

annoying. guys don't do this.

it is so annoying when you change your facebook status from "in a relationship" to "single" how many guys text you. i mean seriously. it is ridiculous. just because something on facebook says "single" it doesn't mean that i want to do anything with you or that i want to date you. come on. give me some grieving time alone. i don't want you to be my shoulder to cry on while you are trying to get with me. its obnoxious.

word of the day

onychophagy

habit of biting one's nails.

"when people walk away from you, let them go. your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves you and it doesn't mean they are bad people. It just means that their part in your history is over"

Beauty.

beautiful: it shouldn't have a definition. because everyone is beautiful in their own way. some might be beautiful on the outside and heartless on the inside and others may be plain on the outside but have so much beauty inside their soul. just a thought. you should all think about it.

take a picture of that smile because you won't be seeing it for a while.

wanna know a secret?

let me tell you a secret... i am just like every other girl. i buy shoes and love makeup and getting dressed up i want a guy to hold my hand and call me baby i cry sometimes but i don't like to (and i don't do it in front of people) i am not confident sometimes and i get hurt over silly things. but i have a heart. and i care. and i'm not a heartless bitch. i like to have fun and sometimes i do stupid things but at least i take responsibility for that and own up to it. i have feelings. like everyone else. did you know that???? 

say what you want to say

say what you want to say. i won't let your words hurt me. because i am stronger than that. you don't know anything. you only gossip and spread lies and rumors and it is pathetic. 

I'm So Sorry Baby

on my knees

i never meant what i said

oh baby please

come home my world is falling into pieces

and i can't go to sleep cause memories 

just hold my dreams

and i try to move on

but i keep hearing our song

i don't know if i could keep living without you

and i'm sorry for pushing you away

yes i'm sorry for breaking your heart

i'm sorry for turning my back when you needed me

i'm so sorry baby

i'm alone, so alone

and time just keep passing me by oh baby when you're gone, yes

i'm always passing by your house just to see if your lights are on

oh baby please come back into my life i need you now yeah

and i'm sorry for pushing you away

yes i'm sorry for breaking your heart

i'm sorry for turning my back when you needed me

i'm so sorry baby

oh baby please

look i've been crying every single night

and i don't see the sun i don't see the stars

oh sorry won't you please come back into my life

oh just forgive me

look i know i hurt real real bad

but if you give me one more chance baby

one more chance

i promise imma do you right this time

oh give me one more chance

imma do you right this time

oh give me one more chance

imma do you right this time

and i'm sorry for pushing you away

yes i'm sorry for breaking your heart 

i'm sorry for turning my back when you needed me

i'm so sorry baby

i cant sleep because you're not here any more. there's nothing left to dream. only nightmares.

i love you

hold me in your arms and don't let go. kiss me long and slow. pick me up into your arms and spin in circles. dance with me under the stars. make me laugh. i like to see you smiling back at me. whisper in my ear. tell me that you love me. tell me that you need me. tell me that you never want me to go. be my lover. be my best friend. lets walk away into the sunset holding hands. you are my everything you are the light that brightens the dark. and i never want to lose you.

people are strange

people are strange when you're a stranger

faces look ugly when you're alone

women seem wicked when you're unwanted

streets are uneven when you're down

when you're strange

faces come out of the rain

when you're strange

no one remembers your name

when you're strange 

when you're strange

when you're strange

people are strange when you're a stranger

faces look ugly when you're alone

women seem wicked when you're unwanted

streets are uneven when you're down

when you're strange

faces come out of the rain

when you're strange

no one remembers your name

when you're strange 

when you're strange

when you're strange

when you're strange

faces come out of the rain

when you're strange

no one remembers your name

when you're strange 

when you're strange

when you're strange

word of the day

basorexia

an overwhelming desire to kiss or neck

let the world know you as you are, as you think you should be. because sooner or later if you are posing you will forget the pose and then where are you??

think about what you really want. not what people want for you.

i dont wanna get up at 5:30 to go to school tomorrow. that is a fricken joke. and what teacher assigns homework over break anyways??? 

someone bring me chinese food!

chinese food sounds soooo good right now like you have no idea. i am craving it. that and salsa. i want that right now. but i cant have it. blahh someone bring me chinese food! doesn't that sound so yummy? sitting at a tepan grill watching them cook fried rice and hearing the sizzling of the meat cooking on the grill. the soy sauce and dumplings. can you tell that i really want chinese? 

i'll say what i wanna say

i enjoy having the power to do what i want. it sets me free. i'm so tired of following what "society" wants me to do. something isn't "appropriate" or it shocks people. maybe those people need to be shocked a little bit more. i like being able to say what i want to say and i don't think i'm going to give that up any time soon. i'm sorry if that hurts your feelings- but it's just my opinion... no one else's. the might share it with me. but i'm just speaking my mind.

awwwww

this kid is adorable. don't you agree? i mean seriously. i am so against dressing kids up in little outfits but in this case, i'm okay with it. because he is ADORABLE ahhhhhhh so cute

breakfast

i really want raspberries and warm orange cinnamon rolls right now