reinterpretation

"I’m not always as confident as I seem. There are many nights and many days when all I want is to be held. I love being held. Always. Sometimes I don’t want to talk about what is bothering me. Sometimes I just want a hug. Someone who will let me cry. I like when boys cry in front of me - when people aren’t afraid to show what they’re really feeling. I don’t like when people run from their true feelings because it doesn’t do anyone any good. I wear my heart on my sleeve, but I am not naive. I know what it feels like to be completely broken and I am all too familiar with what it means to be hurt. I know what it’s like to see something funny and not laugh. I’ve been taken advantage of, used, and abused. My feelings have been blatantly disregarded. But I still believe that all people are good at heart. And my trust in people has not diminished. To be completely honest, I hope it never does. Ever."

i read this. and for some reason it made me think. i have seen a few people blog this passage and i am going to write my own version. so here it goes:

i am confident. i am confident in my opinions. i stand up for my beliefs. i enjoy being strong and independent. i have my issues with myself and i have days where i just want to cry. but i am not insecure. i dont want to be held. it makes me feel weak. i love to cuddle its one of my favorite things to do but i dont want to be held, i dont want to be babied. i dont want to cry. all i want to do is smile. i want someone who will make me laugh when everything seems to be going wrong. i dont like when people cry. i can deal with it. but i dont like to see people cry. to see people hurt. i like deep conversations and when people tell me whats one their mind but i dont want to see them sad. i think some people get hurt by their feelings and sometimes it is easier to look past them then dwell on them. i dont think you should deny them. but i think that you shouldnt have to talk about every little thing.  i dont wear my heart on my sleeve. i dont trust people enough for that. if i care about you i will tell you. i am not naive. i know how it feels to be completely broken and i know all too well how it feels to be hurt. i laugh when i think something is funny. but sometimes it is an empty laugh. i have been taken advantage of ive been used ive been abused. me feelings have been blatantly disregarded. i believe that some people have a good heart but others have bad intentions. i have no trust any more. i have a giant wall that you have to break down to get in. i am that way because trust leads to hurt