gotta love mini photo shoots in the bathroom- we ended up breaking the shower curtain and making it fall off the wall. that is skill. haha

THE INFAMOUS BACK FLIP.

beware: slippery banana peel!

i've finally accepted the fact that i am going to be albino the rest of my life. i'm not going to be the super tan girl who wears shorts every day during summer showing her tanness... is that a word??? now it is. tanness-- how tan your skin is. haha its unfortunate.. but at least i am not delusional and think getting a spray tan will make me tan. it will make me an oompa loompa

no paparazzi please.

we made it to the very top

joshua tree 2010 <3

water polo... i think i spent a good 5 hours covering this sport. gotta love a bunch of boys running around in speedos. the scary thing is when you get used to it.

our white wall and our shadows. 

WE ARE STARTING THE COUNT DOWN TO SPRING BREAK.. RIGHT... NOW!!

i miss my super christian, crazy babyyy

who wore bows in her hair <3

does anyone besides me find it strange that jen's cat is giving her other cat a hickey??? just wondering if i was the only one who thought that was abnormal...

some of the pictures i took at antelope canyon this summer. i was just playing with it some it was fun :) i'd never taken anything like this before. its literally a hole in the ground in page, arizona that looks like nothing but it is absolutely stunning. i definitely want to go back there

my shoes. well.... i have like 10 more pairs. can you tell i have a problem??

i find it funny that a blonde girl with acrylics is wearing a bad ring. because she is definitely very very bad. right?

if a cow laughed, would milk come out its nose???

chinese. yum.

i really don't think its wrong to look at guys and judge them based off of their looks... they do that to us every single day. i'm sick of the girls who go for guys that are not good enough for them and use the "they are nice" card. if you look at a guy and he is sexy just say he is sexy my god.

time to be summer. pretty pretty please

you're the pretty eyed girl with no care in the world and that big fake smile glued across her cheeks. whos breaking breaking breaking down on the inside. you stutter and shake trying to escape the quivers and quakes when you're sitting alone at home wondering where you need to be in your life. and then i ask myself why. this pretty eyed girl who holds the world in the palm of her hands is falling apart wanting to restart the life that she has the life she was given. and the more i look at her the more i see the anger in her eyes. and the sadness. i know she cries. and the hole in her heart. she's trying her best not to fall apart at my feet. she's under a curse and im trying to find a way to break this spell that is binding her arms and tying her down to the ground. no innocent eyes. no time for goodbyes. baby please don't cry because i'm starting to realize that we're tied at the hip and i dont know how to let you go. because i'm fuckin up the flow of things and i know that you don't appreciate everything that i need to be. for me.

sometimes when i'm alone i wonder, is there a spell that i'm under, keeping me from seeing the real thing?

the dial tone- answer your phone. stop acting so at home. you're all alone. you make it seem like you're everything you need to be. you're pathetic. sitting on the couch staring at the static on the television screen. wishing you could be part of that happy family you cut out from better homes and gardens magazines when you were just ten years old with no one to hold except that baby doll sitting in the corner. now. lets get back to reality. you're nothing more than the girl sittin at the table in the corner wanting to be everything she can't be. the blonde haired bitch with the big ring and the house with a baby. 

stop looking at me like you know me. you don't. there's no way that you own me. i'm wondering why that i'm still living in this house smiling at these jokes holding your hand pretending you care about me when you dont. used to be just us to but now i'm sitting here trying to forget all the lies you told all the words that hold me to who you think i need to be. you dont even know me. you're breaking me down holding me up. so sick of this roller coaster of emotions- feelings erupt. and you know that im broken im bleeding inside im unfeeling but i'm still breathing, hearts still beating. barely. i try to stand up. you push me down. but imma stand up now. stand up proud. get off of your balcony. quit lookin down on me. quit acting like you hold me to who you think that i need to be. this is my life its not yours so stop injecting yourself to where you think that you need to be. i dont want you near me i want you to hear me listen instead of missin hearing the sound of your own voice. it haunts me. taunts me. makes me feel like i need to be better than you make me out to be. 

you suck. santa's not coming to your house this year.

it's all for you, down to every crystal, every piece of glitter. i want you to notice. i want you to care. i want it to be pretty. i open my books, not my legs. i want you to judge me. i want you to see me and have ideas in your head and have ideas in your head as to what you think i am, whether they're good or bad. people always have misconceptions of me. i want to surprise you when you underestimate me. i want to prove your judgements wrong and show you i'm not what you expect.

i'm a woman of very few words, but lots of actions.

"today my boyfriend renamed all the contacts in my phone to see if i'd notice. thanks to him, i've been sending dirty texts to my boss. the worst part is my boss was responding back. FML."

"today i got stuck in a small elevator. it started to violently judder up and down after i pressed the 'help buzzer' the man on the intercom wouldn't stop laughing at how my voice was jumpy from the juddering movements before he called for help. FML."

"today my wife was tired, so i gave her some quiet time, i took our daughters out grocery shopping. a woman at the store asked my four year old if she was having fun shopping with  her daddy. she answered, 'he's not my real daddy.' FML."


"today i found my mom eating cat biscuits. we don't have a cat. FML."

i think that i've done enough thinking for one day.. i've got more than a little on my mind and i think i'm finally starting to realize that i need to do what's good for me instead of pleasing everyone else. i need to be happy- really really happy. because i haven't been in a long time. hmm..... i'm being depressing today. i'll think less tomorrow haha